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Landscapes of time, traveling through the Self, in transparency. - Hannah (Tennessee)
I decided to see what I could do creatively with pastels. Routinely, I will express with flowers or other organic items in the yard that have decayed before composting. So, I had to put one petal from a hydrangea on there.
This interactive Journaling has made this year's holy night's extremely precious to me. Thank you all for your time. - Alexandria (Connecticut) |
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December 27
In July, our family camped on the furthest east island in Penobscot Bay in Maine. This was probably the last vacation for a while as a nuclear family, as our eldest of four teenagers is moving onto work experiences and internships this coming summer. I knew that at the time, and walking the granite paths of that rocky island, I was aware of something dissolving. I have felt the grief of this change on and off the whole year, mostly distant, but sometimes breaking over me at unexpected times. I did not expect the depth of the sadness. I was never a person who wanted my children to stay small. I loved each stage of their childhood, but genuinely enjoyed more the daily routines as they got older, when we could explore interests together, have conversations about what mattered to them, and when they could teach me about things they were discovering out of their own initiative. I consciously put on hold big projects I wanted to do until they were older, and am excited to take those up now. But still. I forgot that in building a family in which to raise children, we were creating something in the etheric world. I feel that we did this well, and the structure is strong, and that it is changing now and will eventually dissolve to make way for something new. I feel it shifting and it disorients me, because it was also the family that I needed when I was growing up. I am strong enough now to let it go but feel it deeply. I don't yet have the ability to reflect on this from a spiritual world view because I am deep in the soul experience of it, but I know that hiking and the mineral kingdom in general support me now. -Abigail (Vermont) |